Welcome to one of my pre-scheduled freakout sessions. Through the mental toughness training that I have been building upon with my coach that gets applied to racing, I actually have assigned time frames this week for which I am allowed to meltdown and flip out, and then when it’s over, it’s time to suck it up and get back to reality and real life. Or if you’re also doing The Sufferfest’s 30 Day Yoga Challenge right now, you’re also on day 17 and accustomed to hearing at the end of every video, “and now you can move back into your day.” Same principle, but without a badge at the end…although, I do get a medal providing I don’t die so…
I can officially say this has been an awful week. Not a darn thing to do with running, just life hasn’t followed it’s pretty perfect plan. So, it’s been very frustrating. Then add on top of it modified workouts that aren’t my normal routine (quite light), but I’m ravenously hungry and eating more but not everything not nailed down–yet. I’m exhausted. I’m supposed to be getting more sleep, and I’m getting to bed on time, but I’ve been waking up at weird hours through the night and then having a hard time dragging myself out of bed, which it not my usual behavior. So, everything coupled together….I’m cranky, hungry, and tired.
I’m also super excited and terrified at the same time.
Race day plan is locked and loaded. I’m as ready as I’m going to get (oh, and no live tracking and notes from the race director say that cell service is spotty, so just don’t expect news until the end/as we head towards post race food in civilization if you follow my social media). At this point there’s nothing more I can do in order to get ready but show up on the start line and run my best.
I. Can’t. Wait.
There’s three mantras that keep me going and come into play at different parts of the race. I’ve trained so I will know what my body will feel like at all points, I know what to expect and how to deal with the unexpected.
Okay, time to get back to work and shut off this side of my brain again for the moment. It’s a good thing. I can do this. I will do this. I’ll see you at the finish line.